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Country: United States
State: Arizona
Birthday: 3/27/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: Music is my life. Next to God that is. My family is pretty nice too...I suppose.  Don't take away the music.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
8/7/2003
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| So the last couple of days, I've been hanging out with my most recent ex. Turns out, I'm doing SO much better than he is. I have a GREAT job that will be starting soon, I haven't gotten involved with anyone new yet, and I have some support from family and friends. He on the other hand is currently looking for a job, not really with his new girlfriend (who is pregnant...we think with his child) right now, and is kind of at odds with part of his family because of how he treated me. So, I should feel GREAT...right? Then how come I don't feel that good? I feel bad for him. I still love him. I still kind of want him back. I mean, these last two days have been nice. No fighting, some laughing, a lot of talking. It almost feels like it did back when we first started dating. I know part of it is because I'm no longer stressed about "us" financially. But I'm just SO confused now. I'm just going to keep praying...and see what happens. Try to listen to what God wants me to do. I'm still going through the whole paternity, custody, child support thing...and he understands it. So, I guess worst case scenerio, we get all that stuff figured out. Best scenerio...I'm not sure what that is yet. Please PLEASE pray for me and him. Pray that we do what is best for all of us...whatever that means. Gotta run now. Gotta think. ♥ | | |
| Ok...so like the title said. It's been FOREVER since I last wrote on here. So, to catch everyone up on my life since the last time I put an entry up on here. 1. Got pregnant 2. Got engaged to the guy I raved about in my last weblog 3. Had our little girl, Selene Isabella, on Oct. 11, 2006 4. Found out the guy I raved about in the previous weblog cheated on me 5. Got re-engaged to same guy 6. Graduated (FINALLY) with a BA in Special Ed 7. Helped guy get apartment 8. He dumped me for a girl who he works with, and started living/sleeping with her before he officially dumped me So that's pretty much what has happened in the last couple of years. Now, I'm moving on with my life. Unfortunately, the stupid guy decided that he doesn't think Selene is his...SO...litigation is going to be happening soon. I've decided I want to get a lawyer to handle it all. I'm too emotionally involved...and I would just bring up stuff that has no bearing on the case. So, a lawyer is a must...and I kind of already know who I want to go with. I had a consult with her a few weeks ago, so one less thing to worry about. OH...and I got a teaching job lined up for the fall. I already signed my contract and everything. I get to start moving into my classroom on the 21st. So I'm UBER excited. I guess there is just one more thing...I've been depressed lately...understandably so...BUT, I've been cleaning up things since my mom has been going crazy trying to get a clean house. Anyways, I ran across old pictures of one of my exs, Rick. And I was putting them with all the other stuff that I had saved from my past relationships. Anyways, I got to rereading some of his letters to me, and that's pretty much what has gotten me out of my funk. It was just the memories, and the reminder that at one point in time I had someone who cared about me so much that he took the time to write it down and send it to me (snail mail...not email). And just some of the things he said made me realize that Mark was never good for me ... and that ultimately, I need to find someone who cares about me as much as Rick did all those years ago. God definitely works in weird ways. I'm sure no one else would have thought that old letters from a past love would help me as much as they have. I am just so grateful that I was stubborn enough to keep them.  Well, I guess that's it. Latez all.  | | |
| Well...it's been almost 2 full months since I've written in here. Quite a bit has happened. I am dating the MOST wonderful guy in the world. He's sweet, caring, a gentleman, fun to be around...in essense, he's everything I need and want in a guy. We met in January, and have been happily together ever since. His family laughs and tells us that we act like a married couple already.  Which is exactly what we hope to be within the next couple of years. Bad news though....last night, someone broke into my car which was parked right in frong of my house. Apparently, whoever it was only got away with the faceplate to my stereo. So, I had to "jerry-rig" a way to keep my music playing while I drive. I can only play CDs at the moment. I was and still kind of am a bit shaken up. Oh well though, my new boy makes me feel safe. So, at least that helps. Well, I'm tired, and I'm watching Wallace & Gromit: The Curse of the Were-Rabbit. I'll try to keep ya'll updated more often. Latez. | | |
| So, it's been awhile since I've blogged. Seth and I are completely over. I'm pissed at him. Don't want anything to do with him. Don't want to hear about him. So don't talk to me about him. I still do talk to him, only cuz he owes me money. Once I get the money, he's gone for good.
I had been kind of dating this guy. REALLY like him, but apparently, he thinks I'm crazy. He's decided that he can base that on one night when I flipped out. But WHATEVER. BOYS ARE BAD NEWS.
Let's see...so Christmas was pretty much a bust. It's not that I didn't get "good" things, it was more, my family isn't handling the holidays well. This is the first holiday season that my grandmother has not been around. It's been hard on everyone. And it showed. I nearly cried several times on Christmas...things just seemed SO bad. Not sure I want to do the whole holidays with the family anymore. Especially if this year is any indication of what it will be like in the future. Oh wells, there is plenty of time to think about that one. Well...I'm gonna bounce. Tired. Lonely. And frankly, I just don't care anymore. Latez all. | | |
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Oh and btw...my parents REALLY love me. Cuz they got me that cam.  I know...I'm a lucky girl. Well...gotta get back to attempting to do hmwk. Latez all. | | |
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